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Personal Thoughts: Post SCKLM Cancellation

Yep, it has been 2 weeks since the cancellation of the biggest event of the year! It would have been my second Full Marathon and definitely a highlight in my race calendar.

It took me a while to pen down (and go through) my thoughts. Honestly, I shoved it behind whenever the thought of “what could have been” crept up. The first few days were tough and I was still very much in disbelief. I was feeling very lost and very empty. I know many of my friends who have trained along with me felt the same way. The exhausting hours put into completing long runs, the pain of speed sessions, tears, running in the rain, haze and heat, and sacrificing much of our social lives……and not forgetting the tapering and CARBO LOADING phase. I had eaten enough to last A WEEK!FullSizeRender

To put things into perspective, I have one crazy friend who bought the next flight out to run the Melbourne marathon (happening this weekend!), just to put his training to the test! This is how hard marathoners train for an event! It is not an easy feat juggling work, school, family etc. Not going to let the sacrifices go to waste! To make things worse, another 2 events after SCKLM were cancelled due to the haze.

WAKE ME UP WHEN OCTOBER ENDS!

Thankfully, I was surrounded by very supportive people and we “cried” together for a few days. Now that we have gotten over it, it seemed a little silly and something we can laugh about!Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

Processed with VSCOcam with f2 presetKudos to Dirigo for the event that was supposed to be! At least I got to catch up with my friends!Processed with VSCOcam with f2 presetProcessed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

For me, I was able to see the silver lining. Of course, I was a little bit disappointed. After the dengue episode, I had little hope for training for SCKLM with only 11 weeks out starting from ground zero. Still, I managed to put in the hard work. I don’t think I have been this disciplined, EVER!

Taking a step back, here are my GAINS:

-I have gained my fitness back. I am (was) at my fittest (so far).

-I am back to my healthy eating habits. I went off the rails with my eating and struggled with my appetite (during and after dengue). During the 2 weeks hospital stay, I had to eat whatever that was provided and I ate a lot of packed food (from the stalls). When I came back home, I couldn’t stomach fruits (for some reason). I felt sick eating fruits because it tasted “funny”.  I felt it was too bland. I craved foods that were SALTY and SWEET. Urgh! It was tough just trying to eat right! Glad to say that I AM BACK! 

-I am reassured that if I set my mind to it, I can get it done. Trust me, if I can do it, YOU can too!

-Didn’t think that I could be this disciplined, again!

-My PBs across 5K, 10K and Half Marathon!

-I am happy and I have gained so much respect for the sport and EVERYONE out there fighting to push beyond their limits whether it is for health, fitness gains, confidence, happiness or self-achievement.Processed with VSCOcam with f2 preset

Not hard earned!

The fitness journey goes on! Make it a habit and make it part of your EVERY DAY life. Yes, there are seasons of heavier load of training and off seasons but whatever it is, KEEP MOVING!

Have an awesome day!

 

Marathon Debut – Standard Chartered KL Marathon

Whoop! Completed my first full marathon recently at the Standard Chartered KL Marathon. It was an amazing, heart-stopping, mind-draining, tear jerking experience…… with an unexpected podium finish! This is a long one. Grab yourself some popcorn and read on!

How I got myself into this mess (joining the Full Marathon):

Dirigo Events held a 5KM speed trial to select athletes for the Dirigo Athlete Development Program. Trying out for Team Dirigo was something I did out of curiosity. I wanted to see where I stood, and what I was capable of. I didn’t expect to be picked for the team! Also, I didn’t know that I was required to run the full marathon with Team Dirigo. This was after I signed the contract. I only knew about it during our first training session with Coach Mark (back in July).

At that time, I still had mixed feelings towards running a marathon. I hadn’t plan on doing so until maybe a year or two later. But I went on with the program, thinking that if I wasn’t good enough they would pull me out anyway. I had nothing to lose.

All of our training sessions together were done on the track. From there, it was pretty obvious that I wasn’t a distance runner. I didn’t have that kind of endurance to run a marathon (at my goal time, at least). They expected all of us to finish on the podium and I knew that I was nowhere near it (I couldn’t even see myself in the Top10). Not just yet. I am glad that Coach Mark didn’t give up on me. He continued to encourage me and push me during our training sessions. It was really tough, but also very satisfying. The first time I ever felt like puking while running was during his training session.

The hardest part for me was putting in the mileage. That meant more time spent on the road and less time with family and friends. I thank them for being so understanding and putting up with my horrible schedule (you know who you are!). I had to make a lot of sacrifices, even time for myself.

10557313_10152828557911388_2548100072912235335_nThere were many ups and downs along the way, both mentally and physically. Physically, at the beginning of stamina phase, every part of me was hurting. Ankles, hamstrings, calves……EVERYTHING! There were the tough times when I was so frustrated and so drained of energy that I just wanted to give up on the whole thing. I felt that I wasn’t good enough to be running under Team Dirigo and Coach Mark. Every time Coach Mark reminded me of my goal time, I can’t help but to think that he was out of his mind. I shunned his goal time for me by giving myself all sorts of excuses: never ran a marathon before, no experience etc (Sorry Coach! But this is the truth). Mentally, I wasn’t prepared to run a marathon.

1911604_10152828557956388_1905644860879136802_nWeek after week, I continued to press on. Run, run, run! Dragging my feet to put in the mileage. I got a slight confidence boost after my first Half Marathon followed by my 2nd Half Marathon 6 days later. That was 2 weeks out from race day and finally, I felt ready. I was mentally ready, if not physically. There was no better time to run a marathon. I told myself that the time was NOW. Still, I wasn’t expecting much from it. Anything between 3:45-4:00, that was my goal (I was being realistic).

Race Day:

10713002_10152828566741388_757989984552150196_nThe days leading up to race day were stressful. I was torn between enjoying my first full marathon experience and living up to expectations.

I had the usual pre-race jitters, except that it was magnified 10-fold. I was overwhelmed by the wave of emotions that I was feeling. Excited, worried, happy, anxious…… you name it, I felt it! I only managed to put in 2 hours of sleep the night before. I was also suffering from gastric the past few days leading up to race day, probably because I wasn’t used to the amount of carbohydrates that I was putting in (more on that in my next post!).

At 1.30am, my eyes were wide opened. I fuelled on a powerbar and a slice of bread. I didn’t want to eat anything more because I didn’t know what 42.2KM would do to my stomach.

Upon arrival at the race venue, I went to look for Coach Mark (because he asked us to but he was too busy with the pacers). Bumped into the sister (Chooi Fern) who apparently had gastric issues as well! Oh, the pain! I didn’t have time to do a proper warm up because I decided to change my shorts 20 minutes before the flag off. The shorts that I changed into had zippers and a bigger pocket to store my gels (3 packs). When you’re out there for 42.2KM, EVERYTHING MATTERS.

1470328_10152828557876388_5381660532147718019_nI was given the privilege to enter Pen A. I was right up front with all the pros. I certainly did not belong there (Haaaaaaaa!). Standing there, I couldn’t believe it. I was about to start my first FULL MARATHON! I was still unsure of my goals. My final mind-set was to DO MY BEST! And that was it.

We were off at 4.30am. I was running alongside the sister and Yu Fang. We started off at a pretty good pace, a bit too fast but still relaxed enough.

Once we hit the major highway (AKLEH), they sped off. I slowed down to the pace that I was supposed to be running at. After about 15KM, negative thoughts started to creep in. I was already thinking about the miles ahead and how it was never going to come to an end. I wasn’t even halfway through! It affected my performance and I felt extremely tired. I had to focus my energy on shutting out the negativity. I kept telling myself: “YOU GOT THIS!” And, it worked. Just like that.

10153041_10152828566676388_8090493810008577660_nThe whole event was really well organised. Dirigo Events nailed it! Volunteers were found at every major turn which made it impossible to lose your way. Water stations, sponges and toilets were placed at every 2/3KM. The only problem was that the other runners took Team Dirigo’s pre-prepared drinks. We were told that we had a separate drink station and that our specially prepared drinks were labelled with a black sticker. None of us managed to grab any.

I had to make-do with whatever that was provided. I made it a point to take a sip at every drink station. After what happened in Terengganu, skipping water stations was a big NONO! I didn’t think or plan which drink to consume (water or the isotonic drink). I grabbed whichever was convenient. And of course, THE SPONGES! Miracle sponges! I turned back twice just to get em’. Once was because Zi Shen took the sponge from the volunteer that I had planned to take it from (STEALER!) and the other was because the volunteer didn’t let it go! Oh, and when Zi Shen caught up with me all he could say was: “4.45 pace”. SPOT ON, i thought.

I was pretty much alone throughout the journey along the 2 major highways (AKLEH and DUKE). It was a long lonely run. Just me and my iPod. I kept talking to myself, smiling to myself, checking out the view, thinking about life, work, family, friends etc. I was also busy calculating my average pace whenever I came across the distance marker. Oh, the things you do when you don’t own a GPS. At least it kept my brain occupied! Sounds pretty crazy but this is what you have to do to keep yourself on track. Also, my mind was consumed by the fear of someone overtaking me along the way (thankfully, nobody did).

10704180_10152828625871388_2003672604511677509_nI think I nailed it pretty well, even without a GPS! I try not to rely too much on gadgets. Know your pace, feel it and lock it in. I was still on track (to hitting my goal time) all the way till about KM 40. And then it went downhill from there. Whoops!

I suffered side stitches (after 10KM) and signs of gastric pain along the way. I had to deal with the pain by not thinking about it. I consumed my gels at KM 15, KM 20 ish and KM 30 ish respectively. The gel taken at KM 30 ish had 1X caffeine. Thank God my body didn’t react to the caffeine in a bad way. Every time I drank or took my gel, I had this lingering fear that my stomach would reject it.

10502065_10152828558081388_3921605657549519550_nWhat’s your running mantra? I usually go with: “If not now, when?”

I expected to hit the wall at KM 30. Before this, I’ve been told countless of times that the real challenge begins after 30KM and that I WILL HIT THE WALL. Thankfully, I didn’t hit the wall (at least not until KM 35-36) or suffer any serious cramps (I was also expecting this to happen). I felt the onset of cramps whenever I slowed down to grab a drink. The solution? JUST KEEP RUNNING. I focused on putting one foot in front of the other, KM after KM. I held on to whatever that would keep me motivated: a smile from a volunteer, a wave, a cheer, the view, the sunrise…… anything! I also made it a point to acknowledge their presence (the volunteers). Thanks to Hui Xin, Cindy, Vic, Elaine and Yuki who cheered me on during the run! So much love!

By the time I hit the Bukit Tungku hill, I was tempted to start walking. But I knew that if I had started walking, it would be very hard to bounce back to the pace that I was at. Also, I wouldn’t forgive myself if someone were to overtake me at the last few KM!

At KM 38, we merged with the Half Marathon and the 10KM group. I knew that I was close to the finish line! SO CLOSE! Just 4 more miserable KMs! My toes were numb and my feet were burning. I wanted to speed up but I just couldn’t. I caught up with Yu Fang and I tried to stay as close to her as possible. But I was going REALLY SLOW. I couldn’t calculate my pace because the timer on my watch stopped at 3 hours and 12 minutes. I had a few seconds of happiness when I saw that my watch read 3:12 during the last 2KM (but in actual fact it had already stopped ticking). It did give me some motivation though. Chee Wai bumped into me at the last 500m. Thanks for cheering me on and partially wanting to wait for me. The last 500m felt like 5KM. KILLER!

10710568_10152828556906388_107453096785912263_nSpecial thanks to Victor and Elaine for the picture! They traded sleep to take pictures for both BSN and SCKLM!

I cannot quite describe how I felt running down that last stretch to the finish line. FINALLY! 42.2KM! My dad and brother called out to me as I ran pass. I did not expect to see them there and I was just so happy. Kevin recorded my finish and grabbed me by the side after I crossed the finish line. I could barely walk after running for over 3 hours. At the same time, I was choking up in tears and trying to catch my breath. Everything was blur and fuzzy. I was just too overwhelmed (and very relieved that it was over), exhausted too.

1899961_10152828557821388_2933958739922416704_nThe volunteers hung the 3rd placing badge over my head and I was immediately ushered to the winner’s tent. The next thing I remember was the sister screaming and running towards me to give me a hug. So happy to see her! She went straight for the gold! Awesome stuff! Coach Mark came to check on us and that smile on his face was priceless. I still couldn’t believe that I managed 3rd place!

10698470_10152828558166388_200532651006400873_nWe had to be quarantined in the winner’s tent until we went through the procedures for the doping test. They expected us to pee in a cup after running a marathon (at least 90ml). Seriously? We were already so dehydrated the last thing we could do is pee.

10629709_10152828557396388_1566355223043383765_n 1016573_10152828557481388_1261461103652750572_n 10690105_10152828557286388_2772804736156660894_nWhile waiting for the urge to pee, we hung around the area and chilled out. I pumped myself with 1.8L of water which my body rejected soon after. Purple-blue vomit! Probably due to the gel.

10671404_10152828557611388_5616199517383692030_n 10500443_10152828557731388_2439921601636654416_nWhen the adrenaline started to wear off, I suffered a major headache and felt so sick in the stomach. I felt a lot better after drinking the 100plus provided. The tent was filled with yummy food but I didn’t have the appetite for it. I didn’t have anything to eat until about 12pm. I was too caught up with everything that I was required to do. Filling up forms, getting my IC checked etc. I was very frustrated that I wasn’t allowed out of the tent. I couldn’t meet up with my friends who were there too!

1620460_10152828625891388_8236984567170413797_n3 minutes off my goal time but definitely not what I had in mind. 10703740_10152828557216388_7223643428478922369_nI remember what Coach Mark said to us in the car on the very first day of our training: “You guys will be up on the podium and I will be there with you. And you will remember this moment in my tiny little car where it all began. It is right there for you. You just have to believe in it.”

I never would have believed him, EVER!

Muhaizar! Team Dirigo’s Male Champ! Daniel and Uma did really well too. GO Team D!

After the prize giving ceremony, the sister and I stuck around for a good 2 hours before we could give them our urine sample. We left at about 1pm. Dropped Daniel off and headed home.

What a roller coaster ride! I still cannot put into words about how I feel about this whole experience. Too amazing. I am very grateful and very humbled by it. Hats off to everybody who has ever attempted to run a marathon. Standard Chartered KL Marathon was the perfect place for my Marathon debut. I couldn’t have asked for anything more. Once again, thank you Dirigo Events (Rainer Biemens, Gloria Ng), Coach Mark Williams, Team Dirigo (Chooi Fern, Daniel, Muhairzar, Uma), Darnis, Maarof, Nik, Brooks, Powerbar…… Your support means the world to us.

10520600_10152828558126388_4378788326007986911_nI’m still new to this whole marathon thing. I wouldn’t consider myself as a long distance runner, far from it actually. But I am slowly learning what it takes to become one. I am truly honoured to be part of Team Dirigo and to be training under Coach Mark Williams. I have never pushed myself so hard and so far before. I have achieved PBs that I never thought was possible. There really is no limit when it comes to running. You just have to believe in yourself and see what you can do. If you put your heart into it, anything is possible.

I am very excited and anxious for what is yet to come.

This is just the beginning!

10670104_10152828556851388_7982515372125200644_nOh, and I own one of these things now. I’m officially a Marathoner!

When we remember that our STRENGTH is a result of God’s GRACE, we are kept humble.

All Glory, Honour and Power

belongs to You.

Weekend Update: From Feeling On Top Of The World To Hitting Rock Bottom

Weekend update! Another back to back race weekend, or so it was supposed to be.

Here goes:

Saturday:

Took part in the Larian Hari Malaysia – Maksak 2014. Always thankful for races on Saturdays because that would mean that I can attend church on Sundays!

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This was my first time eating a Powerbar before a race. I know I shouldn’t try anything new on race day but oh well!

This stuff is awesome! Vanilla crisp tastes exactly like my favourite Kellogg’s rice crispies! Why didn’t I discover this earlier! Going to have it for breakfast, lunch, dinner, supper…… okay let’s not get carried away.

Arrived rather early. Met up with the running sister and we did a mini warm up session together. I was feeling pretty nervous, the usual pre-race jitters. Bumped into our coach and he gave us a lil pep talk before the race. He also realised that he had signed up for the wrong category. Too funny.

We were off at 7.30am. This time, I didn’t start out too strong. I kept to my pace and followed the pack. It was a tough one with many competitors. But that’s the best part about racing! I tailed behind the 6th female runner all the way to the end. I managed to sprint my heart out for the final 100m and I was just 2 seconds behind her. In terms of nett time, I was 1 second ahead of her. I came in 7th place by gun time but I hit a new PB! WHOOP! It didn’t feel like it so I was pretty surprised.

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Met up with Michelle too! The 3 Puma girls.

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Pro Veteran runners!

After the prize giving ceremony, Chooi Fern and I made our way to KL for the Standard Chartered KL Marathon Media Route Tour. Team Dirigo was given a spot on the bus!

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When the rest of the crew finally arrived, we set off on our journey around KL.

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We drove along the Marathon route, escorted by police outriders. We managed to escape the Saturday afternoon jam. Many other drivers were poking their heads out, wondering who these bunch of jokers were hogging up the road! We felt like royalty with our 1 hour of fame.

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The little minions.

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Coach Mark led the session.

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Driving on the opposite side!

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We went up for some fresh air! Sylvia was there too.

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When the Media Tour finally came to an end, we walked to Chinatown for some grub. We hadn’t eaten anything since the race!

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FOOD!

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Tea time snacks courtesy of the sister! So much love! Marble and poppy seed, my favourite!

Sunday:

My colleague was kind enough to register the BHP run for me. Sadly, I couldn’t wake up and I missed it. GAH! It took me a day and a half to get over it.

I had doubts about showing up for the race the night before. But knowing me, I wouldn’t just give up on a race. I set my alarm. But I guess my body was too exhausted to function. I slept till 11am! Nearly 12 hours of sleep!

When i woke up, I was partially in shock and everything felt like a dream. I was feeling so depressed and disappointed at myself.

I woke up this morning, still feeling as empty as ever. I hadn’t gotten over the fact that I had missed yesterday’s race.

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I thank God for the friends that He placed in my life. It took my non-runner bestie to “wake” me up and to remind me of why I love running. It was a real slap in the face. And I love her for that. Thanks for being there for me, through the good and the bad. You can read me inside out and say all the right words.

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Yep, nobody is perfect. There is always failure and sadness. You wish things hadn’t happen but they did. Look on the bright side. There is always hope. Everyone fails once in a while. It is how you pull yourself out of it that matters. What is done is done. Accept it, learn from it and make the best of it. Those are the best kinds of mistakes.

2When you’re grateful for what you’ve got, you won’t complain for what you don’t have.

Today, I channeled all that negative energy into putting in one of my best LSDs ever! My confidence is through the roof right now. I’m celebrating the little things and the mini milestones that I’ve achieved.

Goals are important but it is also important with being okay with where you’re at. Right now, I am okay. Enjoying every bit of the process.

When I reflect on all that has happened, I am grateful that I came this far. All the pain, experiences, training, knowledge…… SO worth it.

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The little sister who is always on the lookout for me. Thanks for pushing me through all the tough training sessions. Couldn’t have done them without you.

image1Yep. Let God. I trust that He has a plan for me. I just have to keep believing!

Happy Running!

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