#RAW: Transformation

HOLA to all my readers! 😀

I know I have been SLACKING a LOT in 2016 (thankfully, 2017 is just around the corner. An excuse to start over :P).

Blogging is NOT easy! It is pretty time consuming. While I love to blog for fun, I also want to make sure that the content that I put on here IS BACKED UP by science. I want to provide my readers with the latest (and accurate) information! Plus, I am a perfectionist. So it takes EXTRA effort just to make sure that I get everything right.

Thank you for bearing with me! I love each and every one of you and I am SO grateful for your suppport. More posts coming up (Hopefully!).


I want to share a little about my recent “transformation”.

If you’ve been following me here (the blog) or on my Instagram (@adelewlp) or FaceBook, you would have known that I have been suffering from plantar fasciitis since June 2016. It came to a point where I had no choice but to give up running… completely!IMG_3125When a runner stops running…

It was quite timely. My body needed a break but I was not ready, mentally. Since picking up racing in 2014, I had not stopped running or racing. I did not take any sort of break (even after my first Full Marathon). I just kept pushing.


Fear

A huge part of me was afraid of losing the progress that I’ve made. I was at my fittest (or close to). I knew that I had not reached my peak and I just wanted to keep going.FullSizeRender_1

I love challenges and I like to set goals. When I have set my mind to it, I would usually go all out and do whatever it takes to get there. My goal was to reach my peak (whatever that was). I was so fixated on that goal that I lost sight of everything else. Training was very time consuming and I had to sacrifice many things along the way.

Self Love and Self Confidence

You truly are your worst enemy. It was easy for me to help other people but I was very hard on myself. Whenever I failed to achieve what I wanted, I would “punish” myself. Either through more running (even if it hurt) or not letting myself eat my fav treat (HAHAHHA! I LOVE FOOD!).Processed with VSCO with f2 presetIn many ways, I also lacked self confidence. I was afraid of taking off days. I wasn’t confident in myself. I feared I could not bounce back after a rest day (although I have proven myself wrong many times!). I was afraid that the rest day could potentially turn into a rest week, month or years! WHO KNOWS! Those were my thoughts. CRAZY I KNOW!

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“Ideal” Racing Weight

When it comes to running performance, body weight matters. Everyone has an ideal racing weight. As your weight increases, the cost of energy increases. This translates to slower times.FullSizeRender_1

It is a fine line between your best racing weight and staying within your healthy weight range. My best racing weight was very difficult to maintain. It was especially hard for me because I LOVE ICE CREAM AND CAKE. In essence, I did not have enough body fat. I may have been running well, but I was not healthy.

Identity

Running is a big part of me. I love it. FullSizeRenderI was a runner. I was known as one. Running was my everything. It consumed me. I lived and breathed the sport. And I guess in many ways, I didn’t want to “lose my identity”.

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When my injury pushed me to give it up (for now), I struggle for a bit. But God showed me nothing but grace. He helped me through and made me realise that there was more to life than just running. I started experimenting with other forms of workouts and activities, the ones that I have been wanting to do. I have been cycling, lifting weights and doing Kayla Itsines’s BBG guides. I was able to do more “interactive activities”. It was a huge change from what I was used to.

IMG_1300  IMG_0169 I was thrown out of my comfort zone. Was I afraid? YES! Am I settling for less? NO! This is not me giving up. This is me making decisions and doing what is BEST for me. I no longer need anything to validate my existence. Not my achievements, medals, trophies, certificates, or even running.

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I AM ENOUGH.


 I am stronger, both physically and mentally.

I know that I am capable. I know that I CAN!

IMG_3066I found myself. I found balance. I am learning to love every bit of me, both at my highest and at my lowest. God has given me this incredible body and it is my responsibility to love and take care of it.


I do not need a title to represent ME.

I am still the same person.

Disciplined. Determined. Stubborn.IMG_2864

BUT!

I now have:

Different goals. Different mindset. Different physical pursuit. Different concept of self.

I am who I am. It is as simple as that.

xoxo

*If you can relate and want someone to talk to, let me know :)*

 

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