Since my last post on injury……
I have NOT stopped running.
I said that I would cut down on mileage. And I did! Although I did not mention anything about cutting down on intensity (teehee!).
Low mileage + more rest = more ENERGY
I tend to go a bit harder than usual when I do get to run. I even managed to clock my best 5K on grass (HAHA!). Oh, if only I was injury free! T_T
So, since my first sign of injury in early March, I have been doing a mixture of tempo runs, easy runs, grass runs, recovery runs, long runs and strength training (once/twice a week).
Because resting did not take the pain away (and sometimes, it made it WORSE!), I decided to just run along with the pain. The usual routine would be resting for 2-3 days, and then smashing out a harder run before being immobilised again for the next few days. And the cycle continues.
Well, your body can only do SO MUCH before it decides to go against you.
Psssst, you cannot fight nature! 😛
One fine day…
I was feeling great after taking 4 days off running! Mid way through my run, I decided to push it! I managed to do my 10K race pace and it felt GREAT! But what came after was not THAT GREAT!
I. Could. Not. WALK. The. Next. Day.
Every step I took was unbearable. Sharp, intense, stabbing pains shot up from my foot to my hamstring. I REALLY messed it up this time. Probably tore something. I have a relatively high tolerance when it comes to pain (and that’s how I was able to run through pain) but this was not something that I could handle anymore.
I spoke to a friend about this. My friend looked at my foot and said “Poor little foot, your owner does not LOVE you”.
And THAT REALLY hit me…hard. Like, WHOAAAAAAA!
Writing about this feels pretty stupid. Heh, if I were to look at someone who was in my shoes, I’d think that that person was INSANE! But I can bet every crazy runner out there would have continued to run through pain (HAHHAHHAHA! I KNOW WHO YOU ARE! DON’T DENY IT! :P). I guess only insane obsessive runners would completely understand what I did?! (Guys, back me up here. :P)
But really, as I was sitting there, staring into space and contemplating on what my friend had said…
My heart ached, PHYSICALLY!
What am I doing? Why am I destroying the very foundation of my body? Why am I fighting the signs of pain and warning that something is not right? Why am I going against what my body is telling me to do? What am I trying to prove?
God has blessed me with everything that I need and so much MORE. But I was throwing it all away… and for what?
I finally came to my senses. I have decided to HANG my shoes up (OH YES, you read it right) for as long as it would take for my foot to be completely healed. No easy runs, no recovery runs, NOTHING!
I am on DAY 15 of 0 mileage. Feeling pretty accomplished!
I am mentally at peace with this decision. The physical pain built up over time has made me fear running. I am scared. Whenever I see/read about running on social media, I CRINGE. It hurts physically to even THINK about it.
This is where I am at! But I know that time will heal everything. Woohoo! In the meantime, I might need to change my domain name. Bahahhaha. Any IDEAS?! www.adelenolongerruns.com?
Take it from me, DO NOT ignore the warning signs from your body. It is telling you that something is wrong. All your body ever wants to do is to keep you ALIVE.
God gave you one body. LOVE it with all your HEART!
Sneak peek of what I have been up to! More on that in my next post. 😉
Take care <3