The Bitter Sweet Departure – Bitter Bit

Hello

FROM THE OTHER SIDE!


Reporting from Sydney!

The past few weeks before my departure were TOUGH. The term BITTER SWEET applies, literally. Up till the NIGHT before I left, my heart was a tangled mess of feeling settled AND unsettled.

Let’s start with the BITTER bits and top it off with a SWEET ending in the next post!


Β BITTER

1. Dengue Round 2

After 2 wonderful weeks in Hawai’i, there was a ‘sweet’ surprise at the end.

It was a Monday (4 days after we came back from Hawai’i). After an awesome training session with my client, my head was heavy and I was running a fever that night. I did 2 sessions in the blazing hot sun (one on Saturday and one on Monday), so I thought I was suffering from heat exhaustion! I took 2 Panadols and went to bed.

The next morning, I woke up feeling quite the same. Took another 2 Panadols to survive the morning. I managed to go to the dentist and then to Apple physio for my treatment. By noon, I was complete dead. My bones were aching, my fever persisted and my head was about to explode! I slept for the rest of the afternoon.

By evening, my dad said that my mom was suffering from the exact same symptoms. Immediately, I knew it was dengue. There was a dengue outbreak when we were in Hawai’i so the chances were high.

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After all the hoo-haa, we were both diagnosed with dengue.

Seriously, dengue?! Again?! I felt like the ‘luckiest’ person on the planet. I just recovered in July 2015 (6 months ago!) and my hair fall cycle had just stopped.

But it was quite funny. Round 1 was with my dad and round 2 was with my mom! (I’m being the good daughter. You know, accompanying my parents through and through) Also, when we were in Hawai’i, we joked about how it would be funny if we had brought the Hawaiian strain back to Malaysia after seeing the “Dengue Outbreak” sign. I guess it was NOT THAT FUNNY AFTERALL!

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FEAR

My main fears were the PAIN and the post-dengue recovery period that I had to go through. I couldn’t imagine going through the process of jabbing head spasms, vomitting and getting admitted to the hospital. I didn’t have time to be in the hospital! I was SO STRESSED OUT! I had planned my client schedule to the T so that I was able to finish my work before I left. I also scheduled many meet ups and runs that had to be cancelled!
I wanted to tick stuff off my list, not cancel them!

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And of course, the horrible recovery period which could take a long time! I was feeling very fit and strong up till that day. I couldn’t imagine starting from ground zero……AGAIN! It was SO hard. πŸ™

IMG_4524Mentally, I failed.

I prayed SO HARD that I would be okay and that my platelets would not drop too low. Thankfully, it didn’t! The lowest was at 116 and I only felt pain/weakness for the first 3 days! After that, I felt really okay! PHEW!

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Processed with VSCOcam with t1 presetI was up and running (literally) after 5 days!

IMG_4455My mom was admitted for a few days because she was not drinking enough water. Also, she had terrible head spasms and needed strong pain killers.

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Thank you Tom, Dick and Harry (Colin and Bruce) for the crab soup!

I want to thank GOD and all my family/friends who have prayed for us and for those who have showed love, care and support! We feel so blessed to have you guys in our lives.

We’re both okay now. My mom’s recovery is still slow but she is getting there! She’s a fighter! πŸ™‚IMG_3046


2. My Uncle (mom’s younger brother) Passed Away (6th Feb)

It was sudden. TOO SUDDEN.

To make things worse, we received this news DURING our dengue period and just 2 days before Chinese New year! My mom had to receive it when she was at the hospital! Double stab to the heart. πŸ™

He had no known medical condition. He collapsed in the bathroom and that was it.

It was such bad timing. It was CNY, I was preparing to leave for Australia and we were down with dengue.

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It was a really difficult time for my family. My mom especially. I was riding on an emotional roller coaster. From feeling sick from dengue to feeling better again to feeling excited about Australia to feeling deeply saddened about my uncle’s sudden death to feeling happy about CNY to feeling disappointed/depressed over not having enough time to finish up whatever I had planned before leaving……

These were the main things that ROBBED me of my time to finish up my work, run errands, spend time with family/friends. I really apologise to everyone whom I promised but didn’t deliver. I feel terrible and I am sorry.FullSizeRender_1

I guess this is LIFE.

Unpredictable.

Everything is truly in God’s hands. He gives life and He also takes it away. It is also a reminder that He owes us NOTHING! You plan things and sometimes, God just says NO! But I know, He knows best.


3. My Brother Got into an Accident

This happened THE NIGHT BEFORE I LEFT TO AUSTRALIA! And my flight was at 9:10am the next day.

He was on his bicycle going down a hill and somehow, he flew off his bike and crashed in the middle of the road. He lost 3 teeth, had to have stiches on his brow and wounded all his limbs. THANKFULLY, he was riding in front of a car that was going relatively slow. If not……it could have been a lot worse.

IMG_5152This was how I said goodbye to my brother…… at the hospital!

He was admitted to the hospital for a full observation. My mom was in distress. She was supposed to follow me to Australia. She was already stressing over work and her recovery with dengue……and now this?! She was THIS close to cancelling her trip and losing her mind. I had no problem with that but it was all too sudden. I cannot imagine what my mom went through. πŸ™

Mommy, you’re so strong! πŸ™‚IMG_4462You cannot control what happens. You can control how you react. πŸ™‚

STRESS!

You know how the night before you’re supposed to be busy with last minute packing, feeling excited/sad/happy and doing some planning?FullSizeRender_2

I was THIS close to a mental breakdown.

I had to add this to my plate of STRESS! I was feeling SO overwhelmed. It had been a productive day of meet ups, massage sesh, food, hair cut, physio, a run AND this just had to happen! I broke down several times in the car on the way to places. I just couldn’t handle the stress. I had quite a few things to do before my departure the next day.

Truly, by God’s grace that everything went smoothly. My brother was okay and he is now en route to recovery.

I was just disappointed that I didn’t get to spend much time with my dad and brother as they were both at the hospital and it was a rather pathetic departure.


Timely Reminder

This was what I went through the last 3 weeks leading up to my departure to Sydney.

SO DRAMA! MUCH WOW!

Not exactly what I had planned or how I wanted it to be. It was not easy emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually. There were SO many questions in my head.

WHY? WHY ME? WHY NOW?

Like I said, whatever it is, TRUST that GOD knows best. πŸ™‚ I feel assured and at peace that everything will be okay.IMG_5410

This is part and parcel of life.FullSizeRender

If you fall, GET BACK UP! NO MATTER HOW HARD or HOW IMPOSSIBLE it seems.

What doesn’t kill you, makes you STRONGER! Really.

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