Yep, it has been 2 weeks since the cancellation of the biggest event of the year! It would have been my second Full Marathon and definitely a highlight in my race calendar.
It took me a while to pen down (and go through) my thoughts. Honestly, I shoved it behind whenever the thought of “what could have been” crept up. The first few days were tough and I was still very much in disbelief. I was feeling very lost and very empty. I know many of my friends who have trained along with me felt the same way. The exhausting hours put into completing long runs, the pain of speed sessions, tears, running in the rain, haze and heat, and sacrificing much of our social lives……and not forgetting the tapering and CARBO LOADING phase. I had eaten enough to last A WEEK!
To put things into perspective, I have one crazy friend who bought the next flight out to run the Melbourne marathon (happening this weekend!), just to put his training to the test! This is how hard marathoners train for an event! It is not an easy feat juggling work, school, family etc. Not going to let the sacrifices go to waste! To make things worse, another 2 events after SCKLM were cancelled due to the haze.
WAKE ME UP WHEN OCTOBER ENDS!
Kudos to Dirigo for the event that was supposed to be! At least I got to catch up with my friends!
For me, I was able to see the silver lining. Of course, I was a little bit disappointed. After the dengue episode, I had little hope for training for SCKLM with only 11 weeks out starting from ground zero. Still, I managed to put in the hard work. I don’t think I have been this disciplined, EVER!
Taking a step back, here are my GAINS:
-I have gained my fitness back. I am (was) at my fittest (so far).
-I am back to my healthy eating habits. I went off the rails with my eating and struggled with my appetite (during and after dengue). During the 2 weeks hospital stay, I had to eat whatever that was provided and I ate a lot of packed food (from the stalls). When I came back home, I couldn’t stomach fruits (for some reason). I felt sick eating fruits because it tasted “funny”. I felt it was too bland. I craved foods that were SALTY and SWEET. Urgh! It was tough just trying to eat right! Glad to say that I AM BACK!
-I am reassured that if I set my mind to it, I can get it done. Trust me, if I can do it, YOU can too!
-Didn’t think that I could be this disciplined, again!
-My PBs across 5K, 10K and Half Marathon!
-I am happy and I have gained so much respect for the sport and EVERYONE out there fighting to push beyond their limits whether it is for health, fitness gains, confidence, happiness or self-achievement.
Not hard earned!
The fitness journey goes on! Make it a habit and make it part of your EVERY DAY life. Yes, there are seasons of heavier load of training and off seasons but whatever it is, KEEP MOVING!
Have an awesome day!