After a 2 month hiatus, I am back to bore you with my post-race report!
We are only halfway through 2015 and I’ve already been to the hospital twice (severe food poisoning and dengue). I hope the rest of 2015 is on my side.
It has been a challenging few months. Thank God that health wise, I recovered fairly quickly after being discharged from the hospital. Sadly, I cannot say the same for my fitness.
My first day back on the road was a killer. I could barely complete 10KM. It was a 9+1KM. My breathing was all over the place and my heart rate was through the roof. I struggled to hold 5:30min/km. I guess the experience was more taxing mentally than it was physically. With time, I knew that I could get back to where I was. All I had to do was to convince my brain, run with heart and go easy on myself. It was tough to see how much I had lost in terms of fitness in just 2 weeks!
For my first key workout, I was off by a good 20-30seconds. You can imagine how demotivated I felt. The thought of giving up has never flashed so many times in my mind, ever. But it was during this time that I remembered why I started running. I ran because I loved it and because I could. I had no expectations.
Passion is lost if you are motivated by what others expect of you.
My main focus: to enjoy running!
Special thanks to all my friends (you know who you are), the Puma Running Club and the #tracktuesday team who have been keeping me accountable and for all the encouraging/motivating words. It means the world to me.
Fast forward 3 weeks later, my first road race #Runwithus! This would have been my first race post-dengue.
I won’t lie, I was actually VERY NERVOUS. I didn’t know how I would fair in a race setting. I was required to hold an uncomfortable pace for 12KM, something I haven’t done in 2 months! Plus, I have this nagging hamstring injury since 2 weeks ago. It hurts to walk, sit, stand, anything that involves putting my weight on my leg. BOOOO!
I arrived 20 minutes before the flag off and immediately, I was greeted by all my competitors. It was a competitive crowd, both for men and women. But then again, I was happy that I could meet all of them at one race!
Did a short warm up sesh with Zi Shen before heading into the starting pen. I managed to squeeze my way to the front and I found my twinny (Michelle Chua). We waited for about 10 minutes for our dear PM to flag us off. Let’s just say we weren’t too excited to see him (oopps).
The Flag Off
We were off at 6:45am. Michelle offered to pace me for the first few KMs (YAY!). But as usual, the first few KMs were at a suicidal pace (HAHHAHA!). We both went a little crazy before settling into our respective paces. Annie overtook us shortly after and we gave each other thumbs up along the way. Loving the positive energy! 🙂
Oh, and I decided to enjoy my run with some tunes (first time in over a year). But for the first 3-4KM I was busy fumbling with it because it kept coming off and it was not playing the songs that I wanted. I need to find a better way to attach it to myself, ideas?
At the first water station, I decided to cool myself off by pouring water all over my head and face. I totally forgot that I had my iPod! I did the same thing with the sponges too! Side note: SPONGES should be provided at ALL RACES (nuff said)! I hope my iPod lives to see another day. I got it about a week ago and I wish to fully utilise it for the next 2 years.
Setting Mini Goals Along The Way
I think physically, I was more or less prepared; mentally, not quite. There is a mental element when it comes to racing. And I wasn’t prepared for that. I wanted to stop to walk SO many times during the run. I told myself that I could stop at the next KM (I wasn’t actually going to but it helps). When the next KM came, I told myself maybe the next one. This continued all the way till the finish line.
My goal for the day was to try to COMPLETE the race at a decent pace. I am pleased to say that I managed to exceed my expectations! Although I am not where I want to be just yet, I did my best with whatever I had.
Whatever happened to me happened and I am thankful (Yes, I am!) that it did. I managed to discover a few things about myself. It was good to experience these feelings and to learn how to hop over these hurdles.
Adversity can either bring out the best or the worst in you. Use it to your advantage and become a STRONGER you.
Shameless selfie. Thanks for collecting my race pack!
To my fellow readers:
I have said this before but I am going to say it again, life isn’t always going to be smooth sailing. You’re going to get hurt, you’re going to feel like crap, you’re going to hate your current situation, you’re going to get criticised, you’re going to stumble and you’re probably going to fail.
I want you to get back up. Keep pushing, keep fighting for what you want and never give up. It is easier said than done. But I can promise you that you WILL get through it and you WILL get what you want. You just need a little determination, persistence and perseverance to get pass this stage.
Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9
God has been my source of strength and my source of hope. He remains faithful in every change.
There are billions of people in this world going through the same motions. And if they are constantly fighting for their lives, you should too!