Sorry for the lack of updates here on my blog. If you didn’t already know, I was down with dengue fever for the last 2 weeks. I spent the first half of the week at home, puking my guts out and suffering from head spasms, one whole week lying on the hospital bed and the next half of the week trying to regain my strength. Those were really tough phases.
I have never been this sick in my life (thank God for good health!) and I have never been admitted to the hospital before. It was a whole “new experience” and I had to adapt to my immediate environment whilst being sick.
Being in the hospital was depressing. I had the IV drip on the back of my hand and I had to lug the whole machine wherever I went! It is a very common thing to have on you when you’re admitted to the hospital. But can you imagine people who have long-term sickness/disease, who constantly go in and out of the hospital, those who have multiple wires and machines attached to them, it is almost impossible to move without feeling like it is a chore!
I resisted drinking a lot of water because whenever I had to go to the toilet, I had to drag the machine that had unoiled wheels and I had to fiddle with the tube on top of having this unexplained fear at the idea of having a needle sticking out from the back of your hand. It was too much for me to handle (haaaaaa!).
I realised how much I took “convenience” for granted. You should be grateful that you can just stand up and walk from point to point. We do it so often that we forget that we should be thankful to be able to do just THAT!
It was a horrible experience. I couldn’t sleep at night, I was tired from just 10 minutes of walking, I had the worst episodes of headaches……and the list goes on. The ONLY good thing was probably having unscheduled REST and most of my time was spent watching movies. Sounds like the perfect holiday (HAH!)! I couldn’t read because my head hurt and I couldn’t focus.The best breakfast in hospital – PANCAKES! OM NOM NOM!
On My Fitness Level
Being immobilised in the hospital has definitely taken its toll on my fitness level. It was not as if I took 2 weeks off from running and still being active with life.
It was depressing. The idea of losing everything that you have built up over the months in a matter of a few weeks. In fact, the day I had my first sign of high fever was the day I started proper training. I did a quality workout that evening and had fever by 2am. I initially thought it was because I had over trained (HAH!). That quality workout came to nothing (boooo!)!
A Season for Everything
Instead of feeling sorry for myself, depress, sad and unmotivated, I took a step back and looked at the bigger picture. There is a time and place for everything. A time for happiness, joy, sickness, birth, diseases, downtime, accidents, peak performance……
There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
Life gets in the way and that’s just the way it is. You cannot expect life to be smooth sailing all the way. What matters is what you do with your circumstances.
For me, it is a test of perseverance and strength. It is not easy to start ALL over again. I can’t say I haven’t thought of giving up. That is the easiest way out. But what’s life if you always take the easy way out?
I did my first 10KM the other day. My first steps in 2 weeks! I am not exaggerating when I say it felt like the first time I laced up for a run. Breathing was all over the place, my legs felt like lead, my back was so stiff – I felt like TIN MAN!
10KM felt like a marathon.
What can you learn from this?
Trust me, you do not want this.
HEALTH is WEALTH!
Whatever you do, make sure your health is in check. Wealth is nothing compared to health. If I was the richest person on earth lying on that hospital bed, so what? The money will only go to my hospital fee.
This was after I got out from the hospital. CRAVED for waffles (for some weird reason)! We waited ONE HOUR FOR THIS!
God and My Family = EVERYTHING (to me)!
Appreciate the simple things in life that money cannot buy. STOP WANTING MORE! You have enough!
Pretty flowers from Swan <3!
Once again, thank you for all your prayers, love and care! GOD IS AMAZING!